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Dr. Crane has offered to assist in the infirmary when he's available. He's a trained psychiatrist, specializing in psychopharmacology, so if you have an issue along those lines, feel free to contact him.

And if anyone else on board has a medical background and would like to help out in the infirmary, please contact me or Merlin with your information. We could also use volunteers with first aid training willing to be added to a list of people to be called in case of emergency or staff shortages during a crisis situation. There is a screening process, and inmates need to have the informed consent of their warden before being taken on as staff. Thank you.

[Private to Homura]

I have your file. Would you like to meet somewhere and talk about it?

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Alright.

[She watches him for a few moments.]

What did you make your deal for?

[Simon hesitated before answering. He'd known it was coming, but it was a question no one had asked him yet, even the captain, although he had a feeling Mal already knew what he was here for and was too polite (if that could really ever be said about Malcolm Reynolds) to ask, and he didn't really know how to explain it with her. The worlds they came from were fairly different, she didn't know about the Alliance or the war or any of it.]

My sister. She- [He sighed, folding his arms and resisting the urge to lean back against the desk.] In my... universe, I guess, humans have terraformed dozens of planets and moods capable of sustaining human life. The government is called the Alliance, and when my sister was fourteen, she enrolled in a government sponsored academy we'd never heard of before, but had the programs she was most interested in. She was a genius, incredible at everything she put her mind to, so it seemed like it was the perfect fit for her. She wrote me letters, for the first few weeks, but then they stopped and we didn't hear anything for months. The next letter I got didn't make any sense, and I figured out it was a code. It said "They're hurting us. Get me out."

So, after spending a lot of time and money trying to figure out where exactly they were holding her, I broke her out and we've been on the run from the government ever since, but she's not quite- [He made a bit of a face, trying to explain.] Before I came here, I was able to sneak her into an Alliance hospital to take scans of her brain, to try and see what they'd done to her. They used her brain like a- [He barely restrains himself from swearing, not really looking at Homura as he continues explaining.] Like a playground. The only reason you'd cut into someone's brain is to lobotomize them, or remove a tumor or an abscess, there's no reason to cut into a healthy one. They stripped her amygdala, the part of the brain that helps you process emotion? [Which she probably already knows, but.] So she has no filters. She just feels... everything, she can't turn it off or ignore it like we'd be able to. And she's not- [He trailed off again.]

Anyway. I can try to find ways to help compensate, with medication and treatments, but there's nothing I can do to just completely undo the damage they did. And nothing else has been working, so after we got back on the ship, when the Admiral offered me a deal... I took it.

[And even if he was some kind of Incubator - which he still didn't think he was, at least, not in the way Homura was familiar with - he had a hard time caring about what was going to happen to him at the end of all this. He just wanted River to be safe and have as normal a life as she could.]

[Homura doesn't say anything to this for a long time. The details are - disturbing, but almost immaterial.

He'd made a deal to save someone he loved, someone who'd been deeply wronged, forever branded. And as much as she'd like to feel aloof of that, to pity him for making the same mistake she made - would she have chosen differently? If she could have told herself the consequences of offering up her soul to protect Madoka, if she could make the same decision again knowing what it would cause, would she have walked away? Could she have left her best friend's body in the ruins of Mitakihara?

No. Not while there was even the barest sliver of hope that something might change. That something - anything - could draw her out of the endless cycle she'd condemned herself to.

When she speaks again, the sympathy in her tone is muted but it's there, obvious in stark relief to the dead tone she usually uses.]

I'm sorry they did that to her.

Me, too. [And he still couldn't help but have moments where he thought about if he'd just gotten there sooner, if their parents had believed him, if, if, if maybe things would have been different.] Her name is River.

[And he's dropping the subject for now, although he won't mind if she wants to ask more questions. God knows he's had plenty of those back on Serenity.]

What have you been doing with your spare time, here?

[She gives a small, quick shrug.] Reading. The gym.

[Nihilistic conversations with Arthas. But however pointless it feels to hold onto the skills she's developed, she's working to do it anyway.]

[That's... better than nothing, he supposes. Maybe.]

Would you like a job? There are several departments that look for inmate help, I'm sure it'll help fill your day. It can be pretty [What's the polite way to phrase this...] Slow around here, some days.

[You can say boring, Simon. She'd agree with you. But a use for her time doesn't sound awful, and she nods once.]

A job doing what?

There's work in the library, or the gym, the engine room, the gardens, there's a maintenance team... [You're a bit young for the pub, but.] Or, here, I guess. What interests you?

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